I-I'm gonna try to not make this all depressing...
Uhh, you know... things-things happen in life.
You know, umm...
I don't want to go into too much detail.
You guys know- You guys know my wife Madelyn...
She's been in videos.
We've hit a-we've hit a rough spot in our marriage, umm...
...and it's-it's 100% my fault.
I failed her.
I failed, so...
And I-I don't want you guys to think it was...
I- It wasn't infidelity, I didn't cheat on her.
I didn't- you know
I just didn't listen.
I did--I didn't listen.
You guys are young.
You guys are young, but I--I owe you guys...
...an explanation to an extent.
Cause this is-this is extremely personal, umm.
And I just want to say sorry. I've been gone for over a week...
And, there was nothing
I said nothing.
...I put too much time...
I put way too much time into YouTube. I didn't listen.
And that you-again, you guys are young,
you may not understand this.
For you guys that do,
if there's any advice that I can give you for the future, for...
for your parents.
I know your parents look over your shoulder, and listen in on what you guys are watching.
If you guys are hear- If you parents are hearing this right now
If your significant other is saying something;
even if they're whispering it,
even if they sound like they're composed,
They may be screaming for help on the inside.
Listen, I swore I would never do this...
...again to you guys-'cause I've done it twice.
You guys, I gotta-I gotta step back.
I've been putting 150% into YouTube,
and this career.
For you guys, and for myself, and for my family, but...
...the one thing that mattered.
So, as long as she-
As long as Madelyn needs me,
I-I won't be here.
I won't be on YouTube
I will come back.
Don't worry, I will be back, and...
I know I don't know you.. I know you don't know me.
aside from how stupid I am in videos
I get that, but...
It means a lot, you've changed my life.
Hopefully, I'll see you soon.
(Note: the other caption authors left amazingly kind and supportive notes throughout the video that I have removed for the sake of accessibility. I understand everyone, including myself, wants to be supportive, but the captions aren't a comment section. Thanks for understanding. -jcthom4)